Walk with me a little while I explain.
Tonight I was awesome. I belong to OurTown Crossfit in Listowel. I have been missing in action for a wee while, but tonight I was back to give it my all.
I arrived and was excited to see what our WOD (work out of the day) was. I knew it would be something special, being that today was Remembrance Day and we have so much to be thankful for. I was right. I arrived to see this:
Coach Chris yells, "3, 2, 1, GO!" and off I went. Squats in groups of 10. Dips in groups of 5. My whole body feeling it. All I could keep thinking was, "Get to the half way point Leslie... get to half way."
The Box clock ticked on and my time was rising and rising. But, despite that, I kept going. Yearning to make that half way point. Then I did. One of the guys yelled out words of encouragement, "You got this Les, keep going. You are half way. Don't quit."
I kid you not.
Half way. Don't quit.
I pushed on. And before you know it, I flung my arm in the air to call out my last finished round. I did it. Not my fastest time ever, but, nonetheless I did it.
I felt proud.
You see, I've been trying to work on myself. Not just with Crossfit, but with running too.
After a few years of jogging on and off I can finally stand proud and say that "I'm a runner."
Yes, a runner. I'm not the speediest, most gracious or elegant human being you will ever see move, but I am upright and moving in the right direction. Last October I ran my first half marathon.
It was unbelievable! This was something that I always thought 'other' people did and could do. For you see, it all started with a wish. I wished I could do something like that ... someday, someday.
Then, a dear lady, Dawn Linklater, who actually taught me to run through her "Couch to 5K" program, signed an e-mail with this signature quote from Katherine Paterson:
That was it.
I was going to turn that wish into something more.
And I did.
I cried tears of joy as I crossed the finish line. It was one of the best days I have ever lived!
BUT....if I'm honest with myself, and honest with you, at the half way point that day I didn't fully believe I could do it. Really. All that training, hours of leaving my family on a Sunday to do a long run, and the time and energy I put into preparing my mind and body, and I still doubted myself?
Motivation is one thing, but as I've learned it can only get you so far.
So, as I decided at the half way point... it was all downhill from there. Half way. If I can just get half way, then I can get my butt through that last half and across the finish line. Turning a wish into reality.
Half ways are in our life at different vantage points and moments. If you are struggling as I was, even after carefully creating a plan to get to where you need to be, the realization of making it to a turning point is huge.
Right now I'm half way through my IICT Part 2 course through ETFO. Half way. Half way through writing assignments. Half way through from missing the snuggles on the couch with my dear hubby because I'm on the computer reading articles (ok... not really, but maybe a little bit), responding to posts, and making my tired brain think! Half way through engaging in learning, collaborating, and thinking constructively about topics and insights my fellow classmates bring to our online classroom. Half way!
But you know what? I wouldn't change this halfway point for money. Seriously. It may be the half way point through my course syllabus and learning activities, but I know this is really a new beginning. New classmates that I will call friends, who are only an e-mail or a tweet away. New resources shared, and connections and experiences had.
For as much as I need to see the clear "half way" point drawn like a line in the sand, I also know that the silly line can move and expand depending on where we are on the road to changing our wish into a plan.
Where are you right now? At which half way point do you need help turning the corner? Who is there with you cheering you on? Or, maybe you are where I was on that first "Couch to 5K" run. Taking the first step is the hardest, but I assure you, when you make it to your half way point, it's all downhill from there!
Thanks for reading.